Each year I check in with my birth card and consider how it played out in my previous year. Then I spend some time considering how that archetype may effect my upcoming year. My birth card is 8 Strength. The last half of 2019 taught me valuable (albeit scary and challenging) lessons about fortitude. Learning to not expend more emotional energy than necessary. To leap the hurdles as I get to them and not waste my energy either in nervous anticipation or after-the-fact anxiety. Strength (or the depletion of it, rather) taught me to be more present. For 2020 I’m approaching my birth card in a much more literal way that I’ve never considered much in my contemplative practice before: exploring Strength as it physically manifests in the world. Two days before my birthday in December I was in a car accident. Although minor, it physically effected me quite a bit. My chiropractor describes me as hyper-mobile. I’m flexible, my bones float in and out of place easily; a combination of some natural hyper-extension and 22 years of “finding my edge and letting go” in yoga. My chiropractor urged me to shift my focus in my exercise to building strength. Not to go “as far as I can go” into a pose but to exercise restraint, pull back just a bit so that my focus shifts to developing muscular endurance and strength rather than length and surrender. “You’ve got that part down. You have got to build strength to keep from being totally knocked out of place.” I laughed. Psychologically as well as physically, flexibility without developed strength just leaves you vulnerable to any bump in the road. I’m interested in finding where the two overlap as well. So for the first time my Tarot practice is going to focus a bit on my physical wellbeing and experience of life. (Tarot deck: Rider-Smith-Waite / page in photo from Magic of I, 2020 planner / domesticated cat skull from Oracle, Kansas City)
When I started reading Tarot professionally several years ago (for strangers, for money) I had already been studying and working with the cards for 20 years. But I was afraid to have my name associated with this largely misunderstood practice. So I chose Moth & Candle to put on my business card instead. Kept myself removed, never put my face on my website, and kept it quiet from most people who knew me. Then as my life changed and I needed to support myself on my own financially, Tarot was the one avenue of my work that was consistently there for me. As I started to be more public about my career path I got some push back, some raised eyebrows, even some “poor fallen woman” shakes of the head. Cartomancy is a living and evolving art form that has deep roots… as long as there have been playing cards there have been people assigning significance to them. I’m honored to carry on the tradition, to protect the lineage, to help push it forward and watch it transform to meet the needs of people now in this time. I still get mixed reactions when I tell people what I do for a living. But I no longer hesitate before I tell them. I am a card reader.
Every once in a while I “fall in love” (not romantically) with a client. Today it happened FIVE times. One man in his thirties, three young men in their twenties who came as a group (two fresh off of heartbreak who refreshingly carried no bitterness, just eagerness to avoid the same pitfalls again), and the woman who took this photo. She is facing major life changes beyond her control as well as significant heartbreaking grief. Their individual cards and readings fade from my memory. They normally do. I read cards in the moment and try not to make a habit of hanging onto personal info that comes up once the client has left my table. It’s their information, not mine. But the memory of having had deeply personal conversations with people that are so genuinely interested in bettering themselves and consciously finding their way through life lingers. When their eyes widen or their posture changes and the recognition arises… that’s what stays with me. So here is a photo of me, dehydrated and bedraggled, but absolutely smitten with the beautiful soul I just read for who asked if she could include me and Sadie in the photo of her cards.
October is the perfect time to get a Tarot reading! Join me in the cozy Moth & Candle studio for tea, cookies, and all of the Tarot insight we can pack into 45 minutes!
Saturday, October 26th: 6 sessions available, Reservations through Eventbrite
- Individual Tarot Session: $60, 45-minute private Tarot reading
- Tarot for Two Session: $90, 45-minute Tarot reading for you and a friend.
- *Moth & Candle subscribers… check this month’s newsletter for a special Discount Code!!!
New clients tend to panic when they see “The Devil” card show up in their reading. But really it’s just referring to patterns and habits we’ve developed that are no longer serving us: everything from that daily Frappuccino all the way to toxic relationships. This past weekend a very calm and poised woman sat at my table. When we got to “The Devil” in her reading she stopped me, looked me in the eye and said, “I know this well. I quit heroin after a decade of abuse 11 months ago.” I looked at her, “Whoa. That is not small. Good for you!!!” We high-fived, celebrated her strength and accomplishment, and talked about learning to have tea with our personal demons. I love my job. It’s odd, I agree. But not many other jobs have opportunities for such intense and pure moments of connection with strangers on a daily basis. I will always be grateful to this art form.
Valentine’s Day is a time to celebrate partnerships. February 15th – 17th you can book a special Tarot session for two people! Treat someone you love (whether romantic partner or best friend / sibling) to an in-depth session for the two of you together! Join Tarot reader Laura Pensar in the Moth & Candle Studio for an in-depth Tarot reading for both of you. This private session includes hot tea and cookies, full reading with all the Tarot insight we can talk about in 45 minutes, and a Valentine printed with your personalized Tarot Soul Card* interpretations for each of you to take home!
$80 for a 45 minute session for two people. Reservations required. Reserve your space by emailing Laura directly with the time you prefer and she will invoice you to hold your spot!
Please email Laura to reserve your time from the list below:
- Friday 2/15: 4pm, 5pm, 6pm, 7pm
- Saturday 2/16: 1pm, 2pm, 3pm
- Sunday 2/17: 11am, 12pm, 1pm
*Your Tarot Soul Card is calculated using your birth date (month, day, year). Prior to your appointment I will determine the TSC for both of you and write a brief interpretation of your cards individually and together. You will receive this TSC reading printed on a card for each of you. We will use the TSC reading as a starting point for your full in-person reading at the studio. The TSC is based on the method developed by renowned Tarot expert Mary K. Greer.
Laura Pensar brings over 25 years of Tarot study and experience to her coaching sessions. LP is passionate about demystifying the cards and believes understanding the history and origins of cartomancy (the art of reading cards) will help you get the most from your own cartomancy practice.
Coaching available in any/all of the following:
- Tarot Basics: how to quickly get started working with the cards personally
- Tarot Spreads: understanding how spreads function, different spreads for different topics/needs, and how to develop your own spreads
- Cartomancy: lessons in various forms of card reading including Lenormand, playing cards, and oracle decks.
- Directed Studies in Tarot: in-depth study and practice in a focus area of your choice (specific cards, spread development, reading tips and advice, working with specific decks, etc)
One-on-one coaching sessions are $50 for half an hour. Contact Laura to begin your studies.
Tarot can be an inspirational and motivating tool. Some of the most beautiful and moving conversations I’ve ever had were over the cards. Tarot sessions have the potential to help clarify goals, identify blockages, tackle difficult decisions, process emotions and navigate complex interpersonal relationships. The simple act of contemplating cards you have chosen at random can be profoundly empowering. Have a cup of tea with me in my studio as we discuss your path and your cards.
Private sessions are 45 minutes. Individual $60 / Two-People $90. Full payment due at time of booking.
To schedule a consultation contact Laura.
Booking a reading with me implies consent and agreement with all terms noted on the Ethics and Conditions page. For tips on what to expect and how to get the most out of your Tarot session, read this post.